Why Am I Afriad

when I know this is what I want and what is right.

here's the pitch

slow and straight

all I have to do is swing 

and I'm a hero

but I'm a zero

I don't want to

turn into my brothers. You're 26. Grow the fuck up.

And In That Moment

I heard Clark Gable.

I felt nothing.

I've been hoping for this for a long time, and it was brilliant.

Now I just hope it doesn't spread into the things I still care about.

1. You gotta take it kind of slowly

2. You gotta hurry up and make your move

3. You gotta tell her that she's pretty

4. You gotta be the perfect gentleman

when you gotta shake the wall, you gotta make it bend

you gotta show her that

she's the balance beam

and i keep falling all around her fairy tale

I spent the night wishing that was you I was holding to stay warm.

This break is shaping up to be the one I needed. I'm ready.

Chuck always seems to shine a light in a dark room, but never long enough to find the door.

My friends are amazing, now I remember why there's nothing I wouldn't do for you guys.

What's the deal with my brain?

Why am I so obviously insane?

In a perfect situation 

I let love down the drain

There's the pitch, slow and straight

All I have to do is swing and I'm a hero

But I'm a zero

Hungry nights, once again
Now it's getting unbelievable.
'Cause I could not have it better,
But I just can't get no play
From the girls, all around
As they search the night for someone to hold onto.
And just pass through...

Get your hands off the girl,
Can't you see that she belongs to me?
And I don't appreciate this excess company.
Though I can't satisfy all the needs she has
And so she starts to wander...
Can you blame her?

Tell me there's a logic out there

Leading me to better prepare

For the day that something really special might come

Tell me there's some hope for me

I don't want to be lonely

For the rest of my days on this earth

Thank you, Chuck.

"What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction."

You Choked.

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?

Seems like I have something to say, just not exactly sure what.

-i'm happy around you. of course it's now.

-i'm pissed around you. what the fuck? all i have to say. what the fuck?

today was awesome, but feels unfinished.

people so oblivious piss me off.

next year excites me.

next year frightens me.

i'm afraid of messing with well enough. i need to stop because some things can't wait.

i've done nothing that warrants this. i've done nothing but stand by your side. i don't deserve that and i'm not taking it any longer.

We're losing daylight but I cant work any faster.
Under the veil of dusk we go on,
Don’t close your eyes.
What if it all disappears in the shadows that reach from the stars?

If I held my ground would you ask me to change?
This drought bleeds on now we're dancing for rain
We drink the air but it’s still not the same
These worlds collide but the distance remains
We point the finger, never accept the blame and I know, And I know

You’ve bled me dry but I’m still breathing
I swear I’m sucking dry the sky
And you wont ever find us kneeling
Or swallowing your lies