All Jittery

I can't tell if this feeling is nervousness, excitement, or the aftermath of four hours of sleep following an amazing show.


when i die, will they remember not what i did but what i haven't done?
it's not the end that i fear with each breath, it's life that scares me to death

when we built these dreams on sand
how they all slipped through our hands
this might be our only chance

let's take this one day at a time
i'll hold your hand if you hold mine
the time that we kill keeps us alive

Two Weeks

Is thirteen days too long.

Before I Go

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know

But we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world

We chase down these days with talks of the places that we will go

There are some of you I may never see again. Some not for ten years. Some everyday. No matter what the case, for six years you have been like family. Thank you.

Congratulations '09.

I Feel Like A New Man

Hair cut. Clean shave. Tight tux. Beautiful woman on my arm. And a brand new outlook on life. 

I don't remember the last time I felt this good. I don't know I ever have.

Unexpected Places

I've been getting nothing but shit from my brothers, their girlfriends, and even my parents. My cousin's husband, the person I least expect something serious to come from told me the first real thing I've heard in weeks. And it scared the hell out of me. 

"Virginia huh? One Summer of love. This is going to rip your heart out."

God Damn It. I'm afraid he's never been more right.

This weekend

couldn't have been better. 

Bonfire. 

Anals and Semens. 

F'ed up hand ( stupid couch.) 

Bow Ties. 

Omega Man. 

Pool. 

Sleep at midnight, up at 5. 

Mt. Baldy. Kicked my ass. 

GCW vs MCQ. 

Wrote my name in the snow. 

Ski Lodges may as well be called heaven. 

Ski Lift rollercoaster. 

13 people in one van. 

The Best Ruffles and French Onion dip I've ever had. 

Kathleen confused. 

Fake parking ticket. 

Pool Again. 

Falling asleep with Cup of Noodles in hand. 

This is exactly what I've been waiting for. Exactly what I needed.

I'm staring to think

marshmallows are just cupid's arrows in disguise.

Desperate for changing 
Starving for truth 
I'm closer to where I started 
Chasing after you 
I'm falling even more in love with you 
Letting go of all I've held onto 
I'm standing here until you make me move 
I'm hanging by a moment here with you 

Forgetting all I'm lacking 
Completely incomplete 
I'll take your invitation 
You take all of me now...